Recall the experience when you have a big presentation in the morning, and you are suffering from a “can’t-sleep-before-3”-nia. Now if you are like me, in the morning when the alarm rings, you would press the snooze button. Usually these 10 minutes of snooze feel like heaven, its like I am mogli in the cozy lap of balu in a jungle with everything made of honey and my nostrils are filled with the sweet damp smell of honey. But now it becomes a different story altogether. These 10 minutes become the most painful 10 minutes of my life. A dream recurs to me again an again like a hundred times in these 10 minutes in which I have got up and entered the class prepared to give the presentation. And the most painful moment is when the alarm again rings at the end of 10 minutes. Now I have to wake up in any case. And the lack of sufficient sleep the last night lends a lot of tiredness to my body and so when I try to wakeup I feel like my soul is trying to rip off my body to get out of it.
I have been living here in iitg for 4 years and now the alarm has rung. Now its the phase of those 10 minutes of recurring dreams following by the 10th minute of painful goodbyes. But its only after that painful process of waking up is accomplished, one gets to give that presentation of his/hers to prove his/her mettle. Dreams, however beautiful they might be, are still dreams. To solve the real world problems, we need to wake up.
I have made a lot many mistakes while being here in iitg. And this place was generous enough to forget my mistakes and encourage me to look forward into the life. I have learnt a lot much from those mistakes, and I know that the outside world won’t be that generous.
Good-Bye everyone! Hope to meet you all at the other end someday or the other!
P.S. : I couldn’t do justice to the post, but I think to write a post which would do justice to these moments, I would have to transcend my own abilities.
Wish ths Snooze last for evr..
when i look at the tags widget on your blog’s sidebar, this is how the larger tags stand out at this very moment:
dil se, frustration, heartbreak, iitg, introspection
..sorta perfect 🙂
and yes sanmukh, good bye !
nice observation.. 😛
This has been pretty much the story of my life for the past 1 year or so.
but seriously its like a uncertain behavior or fear…of getting in the over crowded open space of this society….wish these college walls were there always to bear with us……..!!!