“PANIC” would be the most suitable word to describe the atmosphere here in IIT Guwahati-One of the most “Prestigious” institutes of our country. With just 30% placed as of now and the cold subsiding, I cant think of any other climatic factor dominating the environment here. Its like we are the soldiers of our country sent in the war zone with guns in our hands and sweat on our brows, darkness and silence surrounding us, expecting the enemy to jump out of darkness any moment now and a single mistake would be enough to loose our lives.(“shudders!”)

Well that was our fourth year. The third year is not at the war yet. We are actually on a greater mission: “To build a time machine in this period of 1 year so that we can go back to the time we filled ‘W’ in the IIT list.”. Well these are actually my friend’s words, so credit’s not mine. :). I have no idea what the second yearites are doing now, but I suppose they must be in their sweet slumber dreaming of whatever they are dreaming! I hope the best for the first yearites that they are still in their infancy away from the madness of this cruel world. 😀 Its just 8 months since they got over the trauma of a mental torture better known as JEE.

Someone said to me “Sanmukh! tune to bahut bura katwa liye, 700 kuch rank pe guwahati aa gaya!” and this led me into thinking about the validity of my decision some 2.5 yrs ago. I still remember that my father was the sole supporter of my decision of IITG. Against all the opinions which I was poured with I chose to go with my heart and got into this IIT. And I was so delighted to know that I was not the only one, even people with ranks 500 kuch and 600 kuch were there with me. 🙂

So now I am at a stage where less than a year is left for my placements to begin, and everything seems to be negative. I dont know what would be my fate in that war which I mentioned above when it would be thrusted upon me, but somehow I dont regret my decision. Maybe its because I followed my heart, maybe because I got a lot many things from this college whether it be from professors or seniors or friends and maybe because I know that if once I could prove myself by being in the top .1% I could do it again and again in my future. The only thing that matters is interest. I chose what I liked and so inspite of all the shortcomings of my decision, I am happy with it and thats what matters. I dont know what campus placements has to offer me but I am quite sure after I go into the outer world, I will find myself a place which I deserve.

I just dont know what I wanted to convey from this post. Its just that things were troubling me so I tried to blurt them out. I am not blaming anything or anyone, neither am I doing anything positive by suggesting ways to improve things. I have fallen in love with this place, and my heart grieves to know that things are not going well. I just hope things get better. So now Id like to take a break and enjoy the good new: “Shankar Ehsaan Loy are coming to perform in alcher, yeppe!”.

“Why do i forget there’s always an other side. You showed me that I can pass all the conditions. You told me I can finish all the challenges . You made me believe in myself. ”

“Now I know I have no limits. Put me under pressure put me under strain and I ll yield gold. The million pieces of my broken still beat. And till they do, I d never doubt myself. And another note, next year I ll again try on you.”

“I was determined not to fall for you.As the days came closer, I had this tingling feeling developing in my stomach. There was something in your beauty that made me break my determination. I was disarmed by your charm. Now I wanted you badly. I could do anything to get you.

So the day came and I was all prepared. I passed the conditions you put for me. I finished the challenges you gave to me. I slept with a smile on my face, assured tomorrow you’d be mine, but you just went away without even saying good-bye. You broke my heart into a million pieces.”

-me to MicroSoft.